This morning Lily and Jefferson got up around 7:40am for the day. This is about their usual wake-up time, but usually Cedric is up before then. Thrilled that Cedric was still asleep, I turned a movie on for the older kids and went back to bed. At 8:20am Jeff came in to tell me his pull-up was still dry and woke me up. I was again thrilled that Cedric was still asleep. However, as I continued to lay there in my bed I started thinking how odd it was to still have Cedric asleep. He had gone to bed at his normal bedtime and the last few days was up shortly after 7am, so it actually started worrying me that I hadn't heard from him yet. In fact, I laid there for a few minutes and just thought "what would I do if something had happened to Cedric and he wasn't responding when I went in there". I know we've all had these scary "what if" thoughts, but I really let this one get to me. I started thinking about what I would do, who I would call, how it would affect our everyday commitments, etc. I started to get worried and even emotional. The anxiety was too much, I had to check on him. When I walked into his room and saw him sitting in his crib with a happy look on his face, I lost it! I picked him up and just hugged him and cried. I realize I had let my imagination get the best of me and it really was just a lucky chance he slept in, but it made me appreciate him so much more. As I sat there hugging him, he was giving me hugs right back, it was so sweet, I was so happy!
I am so grateful I have healthy children and I am so happy Cedric, Jefferson and Lily are a part of my life. I thank my Heavenly Father daily for them. I know this was not a real "close call", but I am grateful it opened my eyes more and helped me realized how precious these little children are.
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